i miss being a ghost of the city alone and complete where the winds kiss burns me and i never feel so alive
sometimes, in a busy cafe, i sit and think solely of you my eyes misty with memories, i wonder what it would be like if you never left i fantasize over a life i will never get to have and i dream of a person i will never get to be it’s a funny thing, wanting only what u don’t have but i seem to always be absorbed in the experiences that were never mine in the relationships i never had and the people i never met maybe it’s all better that this happened and maybe if you stayed, you’d be dreaming of the life u would have if only you left but it doesn’t matter anymore because life has moved on and i guess it’s time i finally do to
a semester of memories all to myself the ghost of the city i flout around alone alone because it’s easier alone because it’s fun but mostly alone because i don’t want to connect memories of people to a places anymore i am haunted in my room by the feelings of what once was i try my best to find solace in the city but there’s too many places that’ll never feel the same because I was there with YOU and now i’m there alone theres very little places that feel like they’re just mine and im scared that if i go somewhere with someone ill lose all that i have left
wind brushing the hair across my face is the most divine feeling of being the awareness of my body in any given moment to feel what’s around me and real and to not question it the wind’s hug is a harsh one and the cold air is a poor comfort but it’s nice to finally feel something again, something more than your absence
Alone and lonely This large house consumes me Days are endless voids of time Im tried of feeling empty I want to be held I miss your hair I want to go home I miss me
i see your eyes in the trees fiery and intricate i collect leaves to try and build your person but my hands are clumsy and your form is beyond anything physical i want to tell you how much i miss you but i can’t quite piece together the words that capture my feelings the distance erodes my brain so i watch the trees for hours and i memorize how the leaves flutter because i hope it somehow brings me closer to you